Been watching a lot of Doctor Who lately. Tonight, I once again arrived at The End Of Time - in so many ways it seems - but specifically, the special. David Tennant’s Doctor was so strong and vulnerable, adorable and accessible. The last 15 minutes of his tenure are heart wrenching. “I don’t want to go.” UGH… As if the sniffles weren’t enough, here comes the waterworks. Watching that transition between Tennant and Smith again, right now - tonight - at this point in my life - really got me in the ticker. It’s so poignant - transition, change, rebirth. Currently, I’m eyeballing some big changes in my life. Some choices are being made - some that I’m making for myself and some that are beyond my control, but choices that are in motion. My brain is full. I need to delete a lot of files and reboot - well… First I need to shut it down. I’ve already begun dropping hints here and there, but the truth of the matter is that it’s time for me to focus on myself for a while - focus on my music, my songwriting, my instruments, and try to heal my soul. I know in order to truly do this, a part (or parts) of myself is going to have to die and I’m coming to terms with that - or trying to. I don’t expect it to be easy, I don’t expect for everyone to understand, but I hope it makes me a better songwriter, musician, and a better person.
I have 3 shows left this year. 1 in San Antonio on Friday and 2 shows with KGSR next week in Austin on Thursday 8/23 and Sunday 8/26. I’ll be promoting these shows on my various social media feeds, then I’m unplugging for a while. My Facebook Fan Page will remain live, but I’ll be completely deleting my personal Facebook account. My Twitter account will also remain live, but doubtful I’ll be very active there. Same with Instagram (although as much as I love taking and sharing photos- I’ll admit that this one will be very hard to even slow down on, let alone quit completely). I will of course be updating the amazing people who have shown their support for me and my music by pledging to be a part of my new album, but aside from that, the only place I plan on reaching out for the foreseeable future is here on my blog.
That’s the social media side of things. As for real life, I imagine that for the month of September I’ll be spending a lot of time on my own, with Robert and Tyson too, but mostly on my own. I certainly don’t expect that I’m gonna be chomping at the bit to hang out with anyone that isn’t family or that I don’t truly trust and consider to be a real friend for a long time to come. That said, if you have my contact info and want to hang, the best way to reach me will be an actual telephone/FaceTime call or even better - A REAL FACE TO FACE CONVERSATION. Those who want to see me, know where I live. To be honest, certainly this crossroads that I find myself at right now, has a lot to do with the amount of people that I have allowed to come into my life who have turned out to be flakes and fiends. I’ve allowed myself to take in far more of those types than ever before and I cannot continue to share myself with just anyone. Another facet to this whole thing is that since appearing on The Voice, I’ve never really given myself a proper break. Don’t get me wrong - it’s been a lot of work that needed to be done when it was done and there is a lot more work to be done still - but I still deserve a break to truly let myself breathe and reset.
Then, when September is over and (hopefully) my brain and my soul are reformatted and restored, I’ll dive head first into making this new album. I’ve been writing a ton lately and there are songs-o-plenty that need to be fleshed out and be given a chance to be heard. Once the songs are in place, the album will be out and then I’m going on the road to share it with as many of you as I can. I’m very excited about what the next year holds for me and I hope you’ll be there to be a part of it with me. Until then, bear with me while I get back to me and back to what hopefully brought you here in the first place - my voice and my songs.